Growing Up #16: Stop and Stare by OneRepublic

Stop and stare
I think I’m moving but I go nowhere
Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared
But I’ve become what I can’t be, oh

Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you’re here not there
And you’d give anything to get what’s fair
But fair ain’t what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see?
– Stop and Stare, OneRepublic

Some songs are more than songs, their lines run like verses of poetry. When you take the music out of it’s soul, something is still beating – its words.

Growing up it seems resonates so much with the chorus of this song by the wonderful OneRepublic.

The second verse you see:

I think I’m moving but I go nowhere

We run around, here, there, everywhere and then suddenly land back on square one, like an impending traffic jam was there all along and all we were really doing was trying a different route without understanding that it led to the same blockage.

But well,

Yeah, I know that everyone gets scared

maybe we’ll all in this together. This feeling of being like a spaghetti – twisted and turned.

That’s how everything around us prepared us:

And you’d give anything to get what’s fair

only to now change the rules of the game.

Wonder now:

But fair ain’t what you really need
Oh, can you see what I see?

what it really is.

Now, the full song. Adding music back to the words.


Growing Up – week 16 of writing about it. I might have slacked off this week, typing this on a Thursday. 

Growing Up #15: Alternate Lives

The week before last week, or last last week as the 12 year old me would say, I was in
conversation with a wise friend. Our conversation shifted to domain names, and the ubiquitous nature of them – always unavailable. My friend says it’s about being quick – finding alternatives. I say it’s about being lucky.

Perhaps it’s both, or neither. Either ways ‘unavailable’ is a tag attached unto many. And perhaps lucky enough to find an alternative is the next best thing there is. If so, then we must be a collection of alternative happenings, for a perfect collinearity of reality and want is a myth, existent only in the boxes of geometry.

If so, then we must be a wayward jumble of alternatives – shaped by all the things we couldn’t have. Thinking of ourselves as the next best alternative is rather strange, like looking at oneself not in the mirror but from the other side of the mirror.


Week 15 of writing a snippet a week, mostly on a Saturday. There are some cheat weeks of course, like  Monday or a Tuesday. 

Growing Up #14: A List of Random Little Things of Joy

Sometimes scared of being alone, other times scared of being surrounded by people; tears dripping out incessantly without any particular reason. One moment feeling like you can fight the world, a while later breaking down while climbing the never ending staircase. Some days of growing up can be terrifying. Since growing up is perpetual, the terrifying days are stretched across the horizon.

It’s strange. What can we possibly do.

A wise friend suggested, do random things and ignore everything else to feel better. So here are my list of random little things of joy.

  1. Pet the pets, brush their hair
  2. Sing or upload a song
  3. Dance random moves
  4. Listen to the rain
  5. Have a conversation
  6. Hot chocolate
  7. Be kind
  8. Arrange the closet
  9. Clean the book rack
  10. Hoover the carpet
  11. Crack a lame joke/listen to a lame joke
  12. Read
  13. Write poetry
  14. Record a poetry
  15. Arrange your desktop
  16. Sleep
  17. Stretch
  18. Write some more poetry
  19. Remember the most incredible thing that happened this year
  20. Smell coffee beans
  21. Practice handwriting
  22. Vision your wildest dream for the upcoming year
  23. Visit a book store
  24. Read Murakami San’s stories and wonder about human nature
  25. Watch an animated movie
  26. Make a list like this
  27. Read science articles on Medium
  28. Send poetry for publication (it might just get accepted!)
  29. Stay silent
  30. Turn off the wifi

Growing Up, a series on Growing Up, every Saturday – because Saturdays are perfect for overthinking. 

Growing Up #13: What’s all this mess? 37 Questions

  1. Are we scared of reality?
  2. How to get rich? Is savings enough?
  3. Are adults more egoistic than children?
  4. Do we fear being taken for granted?
  5. Why are some of the better things already taken, like domain names?
  6. Do we do things for the sake of it? Education? Marriage? (Inflammatory stuff here, ahem.)
  7. Why are we so bothered?
  8. Is it really possible to give up position, reward and do things for experience and learning?
  9. Should I run or hide?
  10. Should I accept or deny?
  11. Has learning become overrated?
  12. Am I really learning?
  13. Why is it so hard balancing being nice and keep people from walking all over your face?
  14. Am I ready to do this for the rest of my life?
  15. What if I wake up and everything is just an illusion?
  16. Should I have pizza with pineapples?
  17. How old am I?
  18. How old do I feel?
  19. Is this PMS?
  20. Is this real?
  21. How do people become successful?
  22. Wait, what is success?
  23. Is business a legit excuse?
  24. What do you call people who read your messages but don’t reply?
  25. How can two extremes of hot and cold exist at the same time?
  26. Do they really mean what they say?
  27. Why do we want to be special?
  28. Am I falling behind in life?
  29. Why is it still raining in September end?
  30. Can money solve problems?
  31. Are humans the biggest threat ever?
  32. What will happen to the economy?
  33. Is 11 pm a good time to sleep?
  34. Whose reply are we waiting for glaring across the screen?
  35. Why does it feel so uneasy?
  36. Which book should I read?
  37. Am I over thinking?

37 Questions because 37 is a prime number, cannot be divided by 2, 3, 5, 7. Random questions that mostly have no connection between each other, they pop up, come and go. Growing Up, a series about growing up every Saturday. (Not today, cause it’s Tuesday at this part of the world!).